February 6th, 2002. Wednesday
 

 

    I'm getting pretty tired of working all the time. I work, I work, I sleep, I work. It's no fun at all. And it's really starting to depress me. Especially when I already can't take it on monday, and i have two more days of it. I took a little personality quiz there the other night, that I read about here. I'm afraid my mood at the time skewed my results a bit. But looking at them now, the test was actually pretty dead-on. Caryn took it, but didn't think so. Though her friend and co-worker Phoebe thought it was also really accurate. You can take it here. I haven't done much else lately, and I'm not thinking about much at all. Though I did stumble across something yesterday that I am unspeakably excited about and more enthusiastically pursuing than anything in recent memory. Call it providence. Sort of. But I can't say, because there's an application process, and it'll be tough enough, and I don't need any of you beating me out for it. So instead, here're the results of the little color test:

Your Existing Situation
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional

Your Stress Sources
Feels unappreciated and finds the existing situation threatening. Wants personal recognition and the esteem of others to compensate for the lack of like-minded people with whom to ally himself and make himself more secure. His sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for him to give himself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and merge with another. This disturbs him as he regards such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome; only by not succumbing to them, he feels, can he withstand the difficulties of the situation. Wants to be valued as a desirable associate and admired for his personal qualities.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him. Circumstances are such that he feels forced to compromise for the time being if he is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.

Your Desired Objective
Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from stress, and freedom from conflicts or disagreement. Takes pains to control the situation and its problems by proceeding cautiously. Has sensitivity of feeling and a fine eye for detail.

Your Actual Problem
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on his resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects him to agitation and acute distress. Tries to escape from this by relinquishing the struggle, and by finding peaceful and restful conditions in which to recuperate in an atmosphere of affection and security.

Your Actual Problem #2
Wants to be valued and respected, and seeks this from a close and peaceful association of mutual esteem.