January 30th, 2002.
Wednesday
I'm leaving work in a little bit, and there's some time to fill.I had a long, involved conversation with Caryn last night, about our personal beliefs. Mostly political and social attitudes. Sometimes it interests me how Caryn and I can be friends. I wonder if I'd acted like I do now when we first met if we'd be friends at all. I would suppose so, but on paper we don't really see a lot of things the same way. Well, we do, but up to certain points. And then there are profound fundamental differences. I guess we both have pretty strong, unwavering opinions on a lot of important issues, but at the same time we're also pretty open-minded and at least willing to listen to other view points. It was a refreshing conversation. Ever since going to the show on Friday night, I've been feeling sort of isolated in general. And it's put me in a fairly bad mood. More melancholy really. It also interests me how much I'm attracted to people who hold opinions completely opposite from my own. That gets to be a problem.
Anyway, the chore after work is to go down to J&R and buy myself a record player. I've been meaning to do this for a very long time now. And buying things always puts me in a better mood. It's weird buying records though. Weird in the regard that it's odd to be paying for music again. I haven't bought a lot of cds since I got my cd burner, which was the whole point. But there's still the coziness of records. So I think the only music I'll ever pay for will be vinyl. Which is fairly cheap. Sometimes i feel guilty downloading all this music for free, especially stuff from independent labels and relatively small artists. But I justify because most off the shows I've gone to see live lately are a direct result of me downloading the music. I never would've bought a lot of these albums, and never would've gone to the shows. So now, instead of getting a fraction of my 12 dollars for a cd, they get a much larger chunk of my 15 bucks at the show. So I think everybody wins here.
Speaking of downloaded music, the album I've been enjoying greatly for the last few days is Massive Attack's Mezzanine. I've always like this kind of music, but never got around to buying any. And it turns out I didn't have to. I've also been listening to the Cardigans. The song "Lovefool" is always on at the gym for some reason, and it reminded me of the band. When I lived in DC, "My Favourite Game" was played all the time, and I took quite a liking to it. Anyway, they seem to have a little more substance than the silly pop group they first appeared to be. Plus, Nina Persson is just about the prettiest thing I ever did see.
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