February 6th, 2001.  Tuesday

     This probably isn't very interesting to anyone but me.

    I stayed extra late at work tonight to take advantage again of Napster and the cd burner.  That's what's the news of the day, really.  So today's talk is on music.  Got a bunch of songs I don't have on cd that i really wanted.  I've been on a bit of a Motown kick lately.  The Capitols, Tempations, Stevie Wonder, and Smokey Robinson.  The rest of the songs are all 60's and 70's songs.  I noticed on the train ride home that almost every song features a lot of harmonies.  I've been researching the Beach Boys for the past two weeks, and you really can't beat them for cool harmonies.  There's a nice little Grateful Dead song on it as well, Uncle John's Band.  Matt particularly likes this song, because he thinks that during the chorus you can sing just about anything and it will blend in perfectly with the harmony.  We've actually sort of ruined the song by singing along like morons, our voices alternating low and high and all over the place.
    So I'm very pleased with my new mix cd.  It's got the most make-me-happy potential of the series of cds I've made so far.  I must say, God Only Knows is a pretty fucking great song.  I couldn't decided if I liked Bob Dylan's version of Mr. Tambourine Man better or the Byrds version, so I put them both on. It's my cd, after all.  The Byrds version is happier, and more of a sunny day driving sort of song.  Dylan's version is more, well, Dylan, and a better night time song.  I'm surprised how much joy this cd is bringing me right now.  The song playing is Roy Orbison's You Got It.  Gotta love Roy.  So damn smooth.
    My brudda Geoff just called. So we'll pick this up later.
 

    I went down and met geoff at Great Lakes, then walked down the street to Loki. Geoff was itching to play a game of pool. I warned him how bad I was.  Then I proved it.

    Anyway, still listening to the new CD.  Good Vibrations playing right now.  I feel kind of weird.  I was writing about it yesterday, but I scrapped the entry cos it was even more about nothing than usual. I was trying to describe it to Jen on the way home from the bar.  Beautiful night out tonight. A bit brisk, and a bright full moon.  A few fast-moving clouds.  It looked great. I sat outside and watched till all the clouds were gone.  It really is a beautiful night sky.  So anyway, I was trying to tell Jen about this new weird feeling. I don't think I've ever felt this way.  Or maybe I have, and just can't remember, cos it's been so long.  I think what this feeling is is "ok."  But I'm wondering if that's it. Cos things really don't seem that way.  Work is tough right now, and I'm feeling sort of burned out.  And I'm tired.  And confused.  I for some reason, I think everything is ok. Not good, but just fine.  Everything is going to be fine, I guess.
I've never really felt that.
    This cd really helps.  It's all feel-good music.  The song now is Dylan's Shelter From the Storm.  Not much to say about it that hasn't been said.  It reminds me of the Wonder Years, my favorite tv show of all time.  It's kind of sad, but very optimistically I think.  Like thinking about the good parts of the past, but knowing the bleak future. Which makes the moment remembered even better.  I don't know what I'm talking about. It felt a lot better when I thought it than when I tried to write it.
    i'm having a lot of problems writing lately. One of the interns at work read a little thing I wrote and said "it reads like you wrote it just to finish it." And she was so right.  I'm having problems with the writing thing. I've suffering some sort of block right now, and I can't articulate anything, which is very frustrating, becuase there's a lot I'd like to write.  Like tonight, for instance. I thought this might be sort of good, and now I think it's just sort of silly.  So I'm going to go do something else.

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